I miss you.

Life sucks doesn't it?
There are ups and downs, and just when you think it's getting good, something goes wrong and fucks everything up.
It's an endless cycle of nonsense.
And then you die.
Love is the only thing you have to live for.
So live your life to the fullest.

Cause tomorrow, you could be 6 feet under.

Funny funny day...

Today was an interesting day. A little bit of drama at the stable haha. Omg I'm soo tired. I wanna go to sleep... But I also wanna talk to him later. /yawn. I don't think I'm going to Playland anymore. Going up and down and side to side just doesn't sound like much fun right now. I need to find something to do on Saturday.... SHOPPING! Yay! Hahaha. Bought my cyberlox falls today. Wewt. Sending them the money tomorrow. Slightly nervous cause I'm sending cash but oh well. Hopefully all will go well. Maybe Saturday I could go to Metrotown. Anyone wanna come? Not like anyone reads this anyways >.>
I need to buy a dress. I really want a dress haha. And new boots. I'm so excited to get paid tomorrow. I love pay day.

Rawr?

Sooo... what are your plans for the weekend? I'm getting paid on Friday and then Kim and I are going to drink in Port Moody with him <3 Saturday, playland with Amanda, hopefully Kim, and whoever has money to come XD It's supposed to be like 29 degrees on Saturday. =] Wewt. Can't wait to go on the hellavator. So excited.

Sleep is a wonderful thing... Haha

Kay so I feel asleep at about 3pm Tuesday in his arms <3 And woke up at noon, Wednesday. I slept for 21 hours! 3 more hours and I would of slept for an entire day. I woke up, realized he was gone, and felt my heart drop. I miss him so much already. Spending all night and day together, it was amazing.
Rode Mickey yesterday. It went... okay. He was kinda being... unfocused? So I did a three jump course. The first and second time didn't go so well, but the third and fourth were amazing. I love the feeling of going over a jump perfectly. It's like I'm flying =]
Cleaning my house and doing paperwork for dad so I'll update later =]

July 5th & 6th

Spending the night with the love of my life. I love being in his arms. I feel so safe <3 I love you.
Can't sleep... bored as fuck... but soooo happy at the same time. Was supposed to go riding today... in 5 hours... but it's supposed to rain now. That's so fucking retarded. I've been waiting for today for like... a week. Oh well. Damn weather.
Note to self: You owe dad like $45. And mom like $20 or something... Work on Tuesday.
Hahaha I'm starting to fall in love with MSI. LAWL. Never liked them until now.
I swear no one even reads this stupid blog >.> Waste of time much?

Last night..

Was pretty fun =] Drinking with Stephen, Sam, and Erin. Erin was fucked and I had to watch her puke. Twice. Haha. Good times. Hopefully riding today, before I go to north van with Erin and my brother. Wednesday was a good day. I fixed everything. And I love him, more then anything in the world. No one can change that. I miss you.
I'm not hungover, but Stephen and Erin are haha. I almost feel bad for them. I have no smokes. Which is gay. But I will later =] Yay for techno.

So...

Last night was so much fun XD Hanging out with Kim, Evan, and Dylan. First we smoked a lot of weed. Then we went to the liquor store and got mudshakes and vodka. Then we went back to Heather's. Drank and smoked more weed. Came up to my house. Smoked some more weed. Watched Evan and Dylan crash a scooter thingy. Went back down to Heather's. Drank some more. Went in the hot tub. Drank some more. Smoked more weed. Then I went inside, Dylan passed out on the couch after asking for girls. Then Evan and Kim went in the hot tub again. I went and layed down in Heather's room. Then I heard doors opening and closing and I didn't hear anymore talking, so I fell asleep. Didn't wake up until 1:30. Got up, rode Mickey, jumped him, let Evan ride him, jumped him some more, rode home, and now I'm here =]
And tonight will hopefully be a good night. Going to the fire works =] Yay! I'm pretty excited.
-I hope all goes well with him. I really do.
Rest in peace Kelly, you are deeply missed.